my bubble

want my own room please

Sasha (Marc by Marc Jacobs) is The One

I went to Holt Renfrew with Jess the other day to look for a new bag (Christmas present!). I normally do not go to places like that.. I've changed. I super duper want but super duper don't want to spend $600 or someone else to spend $600 on me.

The mistake was going to Holt Renfrew first cause everywhere else we went that night sucked. Every other bag was 'just the rest' and not 'the one'. All the other bags looked so poor quality and crappy.

Jess says it's good now cause it means I have better taste. I want to change back because I cannot support this change. I can't even pay my bills now without dipping into the savings.

I want the one ... that I can afford.

fortunate and grateful

I know it's not Thanksgiving and I don't usually do this kind of thing (and should be writing a paper) but I'm feeling extra lucky tonight so here are a list of some of the things that I am fortunate and grateful for having.

1. A roof over my head and bed (and blankets) to sleep in
2. Food in my fridge and stomach
3. Family that supports me, spoils me and puts up with me
4. Quality friends whom I can run to and trust with my life
5. A boyfriend who loves me, cooks for me and wants to see me succeed
6. Employment at a job where my boss sincerely cares and is very understanding and flexible
7. An education even though I don't treat it like I should
8. Technology and the money to pay for it
9. You because you're taking the time to read this

What are you thankful for? = )

so dry

... that it's painful.

= )

I'm happy, how are you? = )

Hectic

September is one of the busiest months for us students. School is really freaking me out. I'm taking the last class for my Marketing Management Diploma while taking 3rd and 4th year classes for my Bachelors of Business Admin. Every one of my classes makes me realize that this is not what I want; this is not what I'm passionate about, not even close. All my classmates are so eager to learn and get out into the real big bad business world. Langara is now offering some Display and Design classes to Arts and Science Students. Part of me wants to take them but I've already got all my electives filled up since I did a whole year of Arts and Science courses. All through elementary and high school, I thought I would be doing some thing artistic. I don't know what happened, what's happening or what will happen.

In addition to taking four classes four days a week, I decided to work as well. I can't work 30 hrs/week for that much longer. I'm always tired and have no free time. I'm scared that even after this hectic month that I won't have time for all the people in my life. What if I don't have time to be with anyone?

Baby I

Amy Millan: Baby I

no one

It feels like no one of my friends actually want to talk to me.

He wants me to do him favour after favour; he does not recognize that I'm obviously getting pissed. He always makes it into me to make him feel better about himself; he ignores when I'm upset and need cheering up. He barely saw me, only talks to me when hes bored at work and ignores when I'm feeling bad about myself. He likes to pretend that he's dead and think it's funny. He likes to be non verbal and push away. She tells me that I'm rude, take things away from me, and make me feel bad when I know for a fact that I shouldn't. She wants to not bring up issues and ignore me when I do; my reward for trying to help is being down one friend?

Am obviously not a good friend or some friggen shiz. I'm going to go crawl in a hole by myself now, bye.

take a ride on the Andy Cycle

Hero's needs to start showing this Ando. Everyone should follow James Kyson Lee on Twitter. Even with clothes, he looks pretty damn good. They should show more of him and then have Peter & Claire kill each other.. for realsies.

That's it for today. Have a good night ya'll. 

Uno and Whistler

On Thursday, I chilled out on our new patio furniture with some beers, Phil and Sam. We soon pulled out the Uno because I love it (not so much Phil hhah). Jess also joined us later. After a few rounds, it came down to Sam and Phil. I loved the smack talk haha it was worth getting a little bored for not getting to play. I was a little nervous because who ever built our patio didn't do it very well, there are many cracks between the boards of wood. I can't bear losing even one Uno card! 

When Sam won a game, she went on my laptop and tried to

 play around wi

th Photo Booth. The light was difficult to handle with the special backgrounds haha as clearly proven by this photograph. She tried for a really long time, I have to give her props for effort. After Phil left, we went inside to try some more. This one is supposed to be us on a roller coaster in case you're wondering why we posed like that haha or not, we're fun like that = )  We tried multiple light settings and still did not get very good shots so we decided to go upstairs so I could pack for Whistler. 

Whistler was pretty fun. The first thing we did was go to The Amsterdam Pub to have some delicious 

nachos. They were hugeeee and very filling. Jess had a Mediterranean pizza but it wasn't that good. It was just like a greasy cheese pizza. They didn't have any Strongbo for Sam so she had a water, Coke for Meghan (I can't really remember but I assume she had a Coke), Heni for Jess and a Growers Peach Cooler for me.  Then we went to IGA to get cake and the liquor store of goods. I discovered that Meghan also has a love for Soho and 7s. = ) We also hung out with Tayla = ) went to the pool = ) had a beavertail = ) played Uno = ) The bus ride back was a lot better than they one on the way there. It was emptier so we all got two seats to ourselves. Then PDawg drove us home (Sam and I to White Spot). It was all good stuff = )

new obsession

• I bought the first season of Six Feet Under a while ago because it was on sale at HMV. HBO shows are friggen expensive. I watched it in two days and immediately became obsessive, as I do with many things. Due to a lack of cash flow, I'm now watching the second season online. Let the sleepless nights begin. I like dark comedies. Speaking of, is The Riches still on? I've been waiting a while for it to start up again on showcase. I also discovered that there is a book... Anyway, I like the shows little day dream sequences and musical bits when everyone breaks out in song = ) Plus Gio from Ugly Betty is in it = )



• I've always heard good things about Dexter and now I have to watch it even more because Michael C Hall from Six Feet Under is in it. Apparently he is married to the lady who plays his sister on Dexter, is that kind of weird? My life consists of lots of television. I also still have Mad Men to watch, but I'm waiting to watch it with Sam. Imagine if I had HBO, I'd never leave home. 



• Jess finally watched Hangover, I watched it again with her. Was not as good as the first time I watched it but better in the sense that we did not have to go to a different theater and still sit in the third row. I think my favourite scene was when Ed Helms sang on the piano, I was waiting for him to sing the whole time = ) I was scared that the character Allan was going to annoy Jess because she doesn't like stupid people. She found him to be amusing though, I was glad. I'm excited for The Hangover 2, I hope the character Doug is in it more, he was pretty cute. 

<3

I love my sexy new mac book.

dos and don'ts

I do not like having to hear you talk about girls all day long.

I do like being on vacation.

I do not like people who don't know what's going on.

I do like shopping.

I do not missing people.

I do like dancing.

I do not like being told what to do.

I do like being random.

I do not like being stared at.

I do like getting to know you.

repeat

on repeat: knock you down - keri hilson ft kanye and ne-yo
who else thinks that ne-yo ruins the song? i mean, come on, "I used to be commander and chief of my pimp ship flying high" ?!

that's all i have to say for now

let it fall

When I read that note, I pretty much started crying. Just the thought that you might not be there one day. I'm sorry I didn't know what to say. I'm sorry I'm not there. I just need you to be ok.

I should start reading over for mistakes.

I like having my own things. I like having my own space. I like having my own time. I like doing things by myself. I like going places by myself. I think I have an independence problem. I get weird when someone offers me a ride somewhere. I get annoyed when someone tries to pay for me. I just get real awkward, even if it doesn't seem like it, it's ape shit inside. I like knowing that I've completed something on my own. I like knowing that I've paid for something in full on my own. I like knowing that I got somewhere on my own. I think I'm in love with being alone.

-

I haven't done much studying yet and my first final for statistics is on Tues but yesterday was pretty eventful. I woke up at noon and watched some television in bed, mostly Family Channel goods. Then I went down stairs and studied for a bit before waiting for Phil to wake up and call for a trip to DQ. We both love blizzards so we wanted to try the new Midnight Truffle Blizzard. Neither of us were that impressed, it tasted like the brownie one. It wasn't bad but it wasn't as good as we hoped. After that we went to Superstore cause he needed groceries. Holy crow does that boy love meat and frozen foods. I tried convincing him to buy some produce, maybe some greens but it didn't play out. That's when I brought up how I'm the person at hot pot who makes you eat your vegetables. Sounds kind of maternal so I naturally freaked out again.

After that, I went to meet Mel at JJ Bean on Main St. She lives pretty close so she walked on over. We were going to eat at The Reef with Mas but he didn't get off untill 8p so I obviously suggested that we chill our at a coffee shop. I got a Mocha Shiver and it was really good, Mel got a chai latte which was also delicious. We were both really hungry even before we met up so we didn't stay there for long before we walked down to The Reef. It was uber busy when we got there so we had to wait for a table for about twenty minutes. We think the waitress forgot that we needed a table for three and not two because she sat us outside at a table that was obviously for two; it felt like a fire hazard. We later got a seat inside, hooray! I ordered rice in cocnut broth that was kind of spicy with cod and shrimp, was super good considering I don't really like coconut. Spicy goes well with beer.

I took the bus home after but the 100 wasn't come for a half four so Jess came to pick me up at Superstore since we were driving anyway. Then it was off to say bye to Betty! Jess and her friends were at Edge in Richmond. I've never been there before but they serve bubble tea and liquor, I was down for that. It was a calpis slush drink with I think vodka served in these little test tubes. They were pretty good but hard to get out of the tube, I had troubles. I also got a grape slush, added nicely to the yummy day I was having. I was glad to see Betty again, she's good peeps. Plus, I've discovered that she likes some of the same music that I do (not like Jess!). Jess was hungry so after that we went to Nan Chu even though it was ten minutes before they closed (2am). The waitress was nice enough to seat us and let us order food.

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Today I watched Observe and Report with Dak, Sam, Henry and Bonnie. I found it to be quite horrible and really stupid. I also didn't like Adventureland too much. I think I'm getting too old, people are getting dumber or both. So that was that. Later, we all (minus Dak) went to White Spot but it was closing at 10p cause of the Easter holiday. So, we went to Nan Chu (that's right, two days in a row for me!). Of course, I found it delicious. Was nice hanging out with Henry and Bonnie again. I see Sam and Dak often but it was nice to see them too!

Thinking.

I do not feel all right.

usual ramblings

So, I know that Sam has been waiting for this post for a long time. I would like to take the time now to talk about cats (sorry, Meghan). What I said about cats was taken out of complex because Sam knows that there is no other way she could ever get me to say that I love cats. I said "I love cats with lasers" because as we all know, I love laser cats (my shirt is finally here =)). Now I know that Sam doesn't care about what context I said it in because she is a crazy cat lady but I wanted to tell the peoples that I specifically was talking about laser cats. Now that that is dealt with, I'm going to do my usual complaining thing now.

I woke up for school today after sleeping at 3a from doing close to nothing (eating McNuggets). I microwaved a croissant and filled up my water bottled. I can't really remember because I had only been awake for like ten minutes but here is what I think happened. I started to microwave my croissant, filled my water bottled, left the kitchen to pack my bag. Then I left the house with the croissant in the microwave and my filled up water bottle on the kitchen counter. This is no surprise to people who know me but I am hungry and thirsty =/ so I bought an ice cap. Then I get to school and read someones peer review of my proposal for communications on my phone in class. Turns out, I uploaded the wrong file, which means I also handed in the wrong file. I don't have any of my files one me and even though my class is over, I have to stay to work on a group project. SIGH, so I have to wait until I get home to sort all that shit out. I don't know where my head is ...

In addition to having no pc at home for quite some time now, our printer is broken and so is Jess' laptop. Time to drop some mad dollars at the Apple store. There is some type of rebate for buying a printer so that's exciting. Getting new things in general are exciting for me. My life needs to be spiced up. All though I experience buyers remorse all the time. Not so much about the products/services but for spending money. I went to the mall and downtown on Friday with Meghan then the next day I went back to the mall with Sam and Jamie. I some how spent $200 in those two days... *shame. Im proud of some of my purchaes though, I bought the Nick and Nora soundtrack for $5 at Urban Oufitters. I have yet to listen to it but am excited that it was so cheap.

Off to do some scholarly activities now, later days.

multimedia troubles

My dad has recently informed me that his iPod nano stopped working. Being my dad, he thinks that I manufactured the product and can fix it. I plugged his iPod into my laptop and it said that it was corrupt so I had to restore the factory settings. After I click 'restore', iTunes would stop responding. I tried this about three times. I'm not sure if my laptop is just slow so it's in progress or if my iTunes is now messed up too... sigh. So I guess I will try an other day.. I also need to do taxes. My STAT midterm is on Tues, so I should probably study for that as well. = / There needs to be more hours in a day. I've been sleeping before 1am these past few days (that's really early for me!). I'm supposed to brunch tomorrow with Phil but he is not answering my text message.. we will also see how that goes. I don't think I will wake up to study if we don't have brunch.

I went to see The Watchmen with Sam last night, she's full of free movie tickets (thanks HMV!). It was kind of hard to follow, I think I should have read the book first. The time line was hard to follow and the different generation of masked heroes... Plus, the guys next to me would not shut the hell up. The themes interested me though, so I think I will borrow the book from Sam in the near future. I also want to read about it on wikipedia but I'm scared my eyes will feel like falling out, like when I read up on ER characters. Holy crap, that show has been on forever. Movies that are coming out next week which I want to see are I Love You Man and Monsters vs. Aliens. Who's going to watch them with me? Eh? Eh? *nudge *nudge

It's been two weeks, I can't wait for my shirt! I assume most of you know that I love laser cats by now...

Hands down, I'm too proud for love. But with my eyes closed, it's you I'm thinking of.

I'm stubborn in so many ways. I get very angry when I have to admit that I'm wrong, I'd rather do things my way and look like a dumbass. Sometimes, I'd even rather tell a little white lie than admit that I screwed up, even when I know the other person won't care. I know it shouldn't matter because I'm not a robot (and it's not the distant future, the year 2000). I don't like to admit that I want something/someone for the same reason why i hate crying: it makes me feel weak. I want to know that I can be comfortable by myself and with everything that I already posses and nothing more. I'm not comfortable with asking for help or advice, I have it in my mind that I can figure everything out on my own and that I can handle it. Truth is, I can't. I've barely got anything figured out. Feelings just weird me out.. Remember kids, it's healthy to suppress your feelings!

I've taking the liberty to not pay attention in class so my note book is becoming filled with blog posts sporadically placed in between my school notes. Never sit behind a couple at school. There is no need to try and feel your girlfriend up during class, no friggen need at all. Stats is disturbing enough on its own, I don't need to have a wall of puke in front of me too. This case is a little funny though because she clearly is not into him as much as he is in to her. In the beginning of the semester, I couldn't tell if they were together. It just seemed like he was trying to hit on her and she wasn't digging it. It is now clear that they are together though. I wonder how old they are because it seems like I'm watching a scene from high school. They have matching phone charms, bunnies, and his is the pink one.. They have conversations where they write on a piece of paper and pass it back and forth. They are holding hands. WTF?!

pick it up

As some of you may know, I'm slow on the pick up a lot of the time. I had to discover Lykke Li on Carson Daly by accident. What a depressing thought, discovering an artist from Carson Daly (all though he taught Earl about karma). After listening to her myspace for a few hours, I mosied to the official site. Not to my surprise, she recently came to the Commodore =( It was sold out. . maybe I wouldn't have gotten tickets anyway ... I went to HMV on Friday but it was sold out. So I went to look around since Phil was half an hour late (but bought 6 cupcakes from Cupcakes =)) I saw a new Dead Like Me product and got very excited so I picked up the new movie. I didn't really like it though. First of all, Rube was not in it and a (bad kind of) different actress played Daisy. I also did not like the director, he tried play down the cynical dark comedy element and something about showing emotion. That's crap.

An other discover I've stumbled upon is Kate Micucci. To my fellow Family Channel viewers (I know you're out there, don't be hating), she is the Cheese In A Cup girl from Cory In The House. For those Scrubs fan, she's Ted's new girlfriend, Gooch. The song she sang on her first episode about the moon as amazing! It's actually her song and I've been her myspace for hours as well. Mister Moon drinks lots of mineral whites and Heinikens! (Jonas) Bonus: she plays the ukulele!

I want to go see No Doubt but friggen pre sale is only for people in the Paramore fanclub or American Express card holders. Paramor costs $30/yr, what the flip is that about?! I hope we get good seats.

cha ching ching bling

I want to get a gold chain but holy crap are they more than what I want to pay for. This one comes in gold plated or half silver half gold plated. It costs $56. That's just way too much, it's expensive being a g. I've been in to jewellery since I started working at U. Since it is so slow there, I'm pretty sure that I've tried on everything (except for earrings because I don't have my ears pierced). There is a lot of stuff I want but am not willing to pay for. There is a sterling silver hippo Biagi bead but I recently found my hippo mood ring so I don't know if I should still buy the bead. (Side note: my mood ring tells me that I only ever feel stressed or neutral) The first time I got jewellery as a gift, I thought 'What the hell is this?' haha I don't know what was wrong with me. Now I love all that good shit. In addition to a gold chain, I want to get a long necklace so I can layer them. There is one at work that has has a black ball and a little key hanging off of it that I want. I swear, it looks better than it sounds. I don't have a picture so you will just have to take my word on it.

Still want a mac book.

Should I cut my hair again?

sharing

I don't consider myself to be one who is comfortable with sharing her feelings. I get really awkward and do odd hand gestures and stutter. I don't know why this is, I know my friends will be there for me. I find some people easier to talk to, it's not that I like or trust some them more than my other friends; I just feel more comfortable. I started to think it's because they initiate a two way sharing system but then I looked back and It's not necessarily true.. Maybe some people are just better listeners than others or having things in common makes its easier for me to share. Oh what a world it would be to understand yourself.

I think I should look for a new job when I get back in May. Hope I have it in me to quit... gosh knows how long it took me to leave 'the place that shall not be named', as Anna calls it. I want to try something new (not retail), but I also like the familiar. Any suggestions? Anyway... it's 3:07a and even Mattie is asleep, think I should hit the hay.

...and oh yeah, I'm obsessed.

Friday Night

All though I was very excited for Tegan and Sara + Broken Social Scene yesterday, I totally forgot it was this week even though Sam asked me forever what seats we have and when it starts (we were row 7 at 8P). We were both tired while waiting for the show to start, luckily it was a seated concert hah. The music that they played before, in between and after the bands was really weird. It started off with some 80's pop tune. Then a representative from the Olympiad came out to talk because I guess the show was brought to us by them after all. He mainly was trying to talk up the whole Olympics shit. Needless to say, we were not feeling it. So he finally left, then very shortly after Tegan and Sara came! They were amazing, I love them =) I also like that they are small and have large breasts for their size. They played I Know I Know and Call It Off, my favourites. I don't know much about guitars but they switched a lot.. does that say something about them? That question was directed to Matt ha I also enjoyed how they talked to the audience but eventually talked to each other cause I feel that Jess and I would do that... or me and anyone.

Then their set was over. The music before Broken Social Scene got a little better. They played Wintersleep twice! Then it was Flight of the Conchords but very very softly. 9 people from Broken Social Scene came out in case any one was wondering. They said something about Santogold and Yeah Yeah Yeahs stealing from Tegan and Sara.. I didn't know what was happening or care for it. I personally really enjoy all three of them and do not think they sound alike. I prefer more lyrics in my songs but the music sounded very epic and therefore enjoyable.I must share this picture from the washroom at the Orpheum. I personally feel that it sends a very good message for folks out there and I would like to say that I am one of those scents-itive people!

After the show, I went to purchase some merch. The table was not set up very well. The tees were up on the wall behind two tables but only one the girl on the right was doing the transactions for all the tees. The girl behind the other table was only selling vinyls, pins and such. ... Sam suggested that maybe the bands wanted to keep everything separate but the things were mixed. So I got really confused and the girl selling the less popular items wasn't very clear in directing people to the correct girl. Then we went to the Pocky store which is becoming a tradition after shows on Granville St.

Prior to going downtown, I gladly helped Sam clean her room. It was fun! I also love her room because it is like a library.I came home with some goods. Three of those are things she borrowed from me still good stuff! She bought Charlie Brown for $2.00 and never even opened it! So she gave it to me for Valentines Day hah best present ever!!!





I must finish editing Dak's assignment now, toodle ooo.

K? K.

I know it will never happen, but could you promise to never stop talking to me cause our friendship is so legendary? K? K, awesome.

*I totally forgot, I've decided that when you comment on my blog, I now require you to tell me your verification 'word'. Also, how you read it to say something that describes yourself, me or our relationship. Thanks!

live it up

If you want change, make it happen. I wish it was that easy to do. I don't feel that I have grown as a person much in the last few years. I'm not the same as I was in high school, but after that, I've only been one me. I'm attending college but it doesn't mean much. I don't have any friends that I met at school whom I talk to after the course is over. I haven't developed any relationship with my professors. I'm not part of any club or society. I merely step into the school, sit quietly in class, bus my ass back home. Still live at home. Still alone. Still here. Just still.

When people ask me where I met my friends I always feel the need to add that we didn't talk to each other in high school. The one good thing that came out of Bluenotes are people. It's odd that that place is the only one I can think of that brought in some new people into my circle of friends not from high school. Then again, I did live there. I wonder where my next job will be. Frankly, I can't take Kits for a lot longer. Stop asking me why I don't like the beach, I don't ask you why we need a dog running around every where and his dog bed taking up all the room in the tiny little store.

This may sound cold but I don't even feel that death has changed me. Obviously it has effected me and doesn't make me feel all that great... but it hasn't changed how I act. Does that mean I'm strong enough to get through it? or Does that mean that I don't care as much as I should? I almost feel heartless... So I'm sad about not feeling sad enough. Dude, something is wrong with that. Ahh, did that even make sense...

Ps: MSN just doesn't cut it, I don't want you to disappear.

doo dads

After doing some brief googling, I've decided that I do not mix well with html codes and all those doo dads. Also, what is up with all the different font sizes? Who knows what the shiz I'm doing. I've thought about trying to figure it all out because that's what I would do if I were still high school. I also don't feel it wise to step into this technological world because I don't have photoshop anymore. True, it was a very old version of photoshop, but at least I had stuff to play around with. As most of you know, my PC died a while back and was stated unrevivable, I think Nicks exact words were "epic fail".

So I now have this home basic something Dell Windows Vista shit. Out of no where the screen will turn blue with horizontal strips, then two seconds later it restarts itself. In addition to random restarts, the keys malfunction in word. What comes out on the screen does not in any way match the little picture on the key that I pressed. I want to get a Mac Book because it is small and pretty. I'm sure my money can be better invested, but I'm also sure that I will have one before the semester is over. I will not wait till September for some student deal to get a free printer and iPod or something like that. I just don't allocate money the same way Jess does. I can not justify things of all price ranges like she does, brand name shit or fake eyelashes.

And oh yeah, I'm obsessed ...

who you going to call?

Went to watch Ghostbusters last night with Phil at Empire Theatres on Granville downtown. We planned to watch the first show at 7P but holy shit, people are insane. We got there before 630P and it was already sold out so we bought tickets for the 930P showing. At least this way we got to eat at Cafe Crepe! I was pretty excited because last time I wanted to eat there, Mattwanted to eat at McDonalds. It was the first time I had a burger there, was pretty good. They have the best fries after Cactus Club.

After dinner, we still had time to kill but it was really cold so we wanted to go to warm places hah Chapters and HMV is the answer! It was brought to my attention that I'm not sure what my Chapters card does for me but I kept going and the kept asking so I said sure and signed up. In addition to coupons, I get a different discount on different books. So I'm saving something and not getting points. Come on, I know you all care. Phil bought Wicked, hope it's good so I can borrow it. It just reminds me of Ugly Betty, hurray for television!

On to HMV. As we know, Phil loves musicals, so we were looking for a West Side Story box set. This brings me to boys having trouble with asking for help. What is up with that? It saves time and keeps down the confusion. Plus, these people are getting paid to give us customer service. So I left Phil wandering around in the game section and approached a HMVer. Then BAM! West Side Story in my hands.

The movie itself was pretty sweet. I haven't watched many movies from the 80's but I think it's safe to say that I enjoy them. My favourite things was the Stay Puft marshmallow man. It's hard to not think of anything! The theatre was nicer than I thought it would be. We didn't expect the screen to get larger when the movie started like in our fancy theatres now, but it did and it was magical.

Hopefully off to study for stats now...

movies

I'm considering not watching any movie that could possibly turn out to have a sad ending instead of talking about my feelings. I can sit there and not cry everytime some one dies.. but I don't want to think about it.

Going to watch Ghostbusters tonight with Phil, we'll see how that goes. I mainly want to watch it because I don't remember a thing about it. It's one of those things that I should know about but don't, like how to play Big2.

K, I'm off now.

Fresh Kicks

After going to J2s Sneakerbox, I've been looking up sweet sneaks because I clearly don't have enough. The first pair that I picked up were purple high tops with Velcro made with corduroy material. Now if you know me and have seen my wardrobe, that is everything that I love in one convenient product. I also saw a pair of kids Etnies which had a large Velcro patch over the front with laces on the strap; it has laces, but it's Velcro! Man, I really love Velcro. The purple shoe was men's and the Etnies didn't come in kids size 2.

I've never owned a pair of Reebok's, but I would like these to be my first pair. It doesn't get better than money on your shoes and dice laces. I am not the biggest fan of Monopoly but I love these shoes. (Let us recall that time at Sam's where I only had one piece of property, also called the first time I met Meghan!) Not that I would ever fit these large men's shoes, but I enjoy looking at them over the Internet and wanting to purchase them. Why are men's shoes so much more amazing? It's nice to dream every now and then. Other things that I dream of buying are all the CDs in the world, every new Apple product that comes out and Candyland. = )

I never knew that I would like wearing flats until I finally gave in. My major complaint, which I'm sure is the same for a lot of girls, is that they get sweaty. It feels almost as gross as it sounds. Some one should some how invent non sweaty flats. I counted and I have 5 pairs of flats, 4 pairs of high tops and who knows how many more pairs of regular sneakers and sandals. I know that it isn't nearly as much as the collection some other people have but things like this make me feel that I live my life unnecessarily excessive. Imagine all the money I could have spent towards a Mac Book instead.. Or all the food that could have been bought.. Or all the extra money I would have saved for a rainy day. Sometimes it feels too easy to bitch about spending money on school and too easy to drop a bill or two at the mall.

**the purple shoes are womens and sam told me about them before she even read my post! amazing!

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I have to admit, sometimes I close my eyes or enter a room and think that when I open my eyes and exit that I'll be in some other universe or time. Now I know that that is not going to actually happen, but having that little ray of insanity (I swear, it's just a little tiny ray...) keeps me sane. So as I walk back to my dreaded stats class from the washroom, my mind shows me a glimpse of a world where everyone I love is there, I've already established a career that I love, coffee is a food group, time can be frozen for up to five minutes and people can fly. It all sounds ridiculous but that world would be so sweet that I can sit in class for an other hour with nice little thoughts in my head that keep me going and awake to take notes about sampling and bias. Eventually I realize that I'm crazy and I'm waiting for the 100 bus to go home; everything real sets in and it's back to earth. Tiny sparks of sanity keep me going; even if it's only for a little while. I wonder what I will dream about next...

Speaking of dreams, do those things mean anything? They have to mean something right? Just makes me wonder . . . Does it mean that I want my dream to come true or that I was simply thinking about the subject earlier that day in some other context? This is clearly the part of my writing where I spit out questions and think that it will lead to answers somehow.

On a brighter note, I finally got my present from Dak and it's amazing! Vosges chocolates are specialty chocolates with exotic flavours such as Venezuelan white chocolate with dried kalamata olive. My favourite is 45% deep milk chocolate with applewood smoked bacon and alderwood smoked salt.