repeat

on repeat: knock you down - keri hilson ft kanye and ne-yo
who else thinks that ne-yo ruins the song? i mean, come on, "I used to be commander and chief of my pimp ship flying high" ?!

that's all i have to say for now

let it fall

When I read that note, I pretty much started crying. Just the thought that you might not be there one day. I'm sorry I didn't know what to say. I'm sorry I'm not there. I just need you to be ok.

I should start reading over for mistakes.

I like having my own things. I like having my own space. I like having my own time. I like doing things by myself. I like going places by myself. I think I have an independence problem. I get weird when someone offers me a ride somewhere. I get annoyed when someone tries to pay for me. I just get real awkward, even if it doesn't seem like it, it's ape shit inside. I like knowing that I've completed something on my own. I like knowing that I've paid for something in full on my own. I like knowing that I got somewhere on my own. I think I'm in love with being alone.

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I haven't done much studying yet and my first final for statistics is on Tues but yesterday was pretty eventful. I woke up at noon and watched some television in bed, mostly Family Channel goods. Then I went down stairs and studied for a bit before waiting for Phil to wake up and call for a trip to DQ. We both love blizzards so we wanted to try the new Midnight Truffle Blizzard. Neither of us were that impressed, it tasted like the brownie one. It wasn't bad but it wasn't as good as we hoped. After that we went to Superstore cause he needed groceries. Holy crow does that boy love meat and frozen foods. I tried convincing him to buy some produce, maybe some greens but it didn't play out. That's when I brought up how I'm the person at hot pot who makes you eat your vegetables. Sounds kind of maternal so I naturally freaked out again.

After that, I went to meet Mel at JJ Bean on Main St. She lives pretty close so she walked on over. We were going to eat at The Reef with Mas but he didn't get off untill 8p so I obviously suggested that we chill our at a coffee shop. I got a Mocha Shiver and it was really good, Mel got a chai latte which was also delicious. We were both really hungry even before we met up so we didn't stay there for long before we walked down to The Reef. It was uber busy when we got there so we had to wait for a table for about twenty minutes. We think the waitress forgot that we needed a table for three and not two because she sat us outside at a table that was obviously for two; it felt like a fire hazard. We later got a seat inside, hooray! I ordered rice in cocnut broth that was kind of spicy with cod and shrimp, was super good considering I don't really like coconut. Spicy goes well with beer.

I took the bus home after but the 100 wasn't come for a half four so Jess came to pick me up at Superstore since we were driving anyway. Then it was off to say bye to Betty! Jess and her friends were at Edge in Richmond. I've never been there before but they serve bubble tea and liquor, I was down for that. It was a calpis slush drink with I think vodka served in these little test tubes. They were pretty good but hard to get out of the tube, I had troubles. I also got a grape slush, added nicely to the yummy day I was having. I was glad to see Betty again, she's good peeps. Plus, I've discovered that she likes some of the same music that I do (not like Jess!). Jess was hungry so after that we went to Nan Chu even though it was ten minutes before they closed (2am). The waitress was nice enough to seat us and let us order food.

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Today I watched Observe and Report with Dak, Sam, Henry and Bonnie. I found it to be quite horrible and really stupid. I also didn't like Adventureland too much. I think I'm getting too old, people are getting dumber or both. So that was that. Later, we all (minus Dak) went to White Spot but it was closing at 10p cause of the Easter holiday. So, we went to Nan Chu (that's right, two days in a row for me!). Of course, I found it delicious. Was nice hanging out with Henry and Bonnie again. I see Sam and Dak often but it was nice to see them too!

Thinking.

I do not feel all right.