repeat

on repeat: knock you down - keri hilson ft kanye and ne-yo
who else thinks that ne-yo ruins the song? i mean, come on, "I used to be commander and chief of my pimp ship flying high" ?!

that's all i have to say for now

let it fall

When I read that note, I pretty much started crying. Just the thought that you might not be there one day. I'm sorry I didn't know what to say. I'm sorry I'm not there. I just need you to be ok.

I should start reading over for mistakes.

I like having my own things. I like having my own space. I like having my own time. I like doing things by myself. I like going places by myself. I think I have an independence problem. I get weird when someone offers me a ride somewhere. I get annoyed when someone tries to pay for me. I just get real awkward, even if it doesn't seem like it, it's ape shit inside. I like knowing that I've completed something on my own. I like knowing that I've paid for something in full on my own. I like knowing that I got somewhere on my own. I think I'm in love with being alone.

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I haven't done much studying yet and my first final for statistics is on Tues but yesterday was pretty eventful. I woke up at noon and watched some television in bed, mostly Family Channel goods. Then I went down stairs and studied for a bit before waiting for Phil to wake up and call for a trip to DQ. We both love blizzards so we wanted to try the new Midnight Truffle Blizzard. Neither of us were that impressed, it tasted like the brownie one. It wasn't bad but it wasn't as good as we hoped. After that we went to Superstore cause he needed groceries. Holy crow does that boy love meat and frozen foods. I tried convincing him to buy some produce, maybe some greens but it didn't play out. That's when I brought up how I'm the person at hot pot who makes you eat your vegetables. Sounds kind of maternal so I naturally freaked out again.

After that, I went to meet Mel at JJ Bean on Main St. She lives pretty close so she walked on over. We were going to eat at The Reef with Mas but he didn't get off untill 8p so I obviously suggested that we chill our at a coffee shop. I got a Mocha Shiver and it was really good, Mel got a chai latte which was also delicious. We were both really hungry even before we met up so we didn't stay there for long before we walked down to The Reef. It was uber busy when we got there so we had to wait for a table for about twenty minutes. We think the waitress forgot that we needed a table for three and not two because she sat us outside at a table that was obviously for two; it felt like a fire hazard. We later got a seat inside, hooray! I ordered rice in cocnut broth that was kind of spicy with cod and shrimp, was super good considering I don't really like coconut. Spicy goes well with beer.

I took the bus home after but the 100 wasn't come for a half four so Jess came to pick me up at Superstore since we were driving anyway. Then it was off to say bye to Betty! Jess and her friends were at Edge in Richmond. I've never been there before but they serve bubble tea and liquor, I was down for that. It was a calpis slush drink with I think vodka served in these little test tubes. They were pretty good but hard to get out of the tube, I had troubles. I also got a grape slush, added nicely to the yummy day I was having. I was glad to see Betty again, she's good peeps. Plus, I've discovered that she likes some of the same music that I do (not like Jess!). Jess was hungry so after that we went to Nan Chu even though it was ten minutes before they closed (2am). The waitress was nice enough to seat us and let us order food.

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Today I watched Observe and Report with Dak, Sam, Henry and Bonnie. I found it to be quite horrible and really stupid. I also didn't like Adventureland too much. I think I'm getting too old, people are getting dumber or both. So that was that. Later, we all (minus Dak) went to White Spot but it was closing at 10p cause of the Easter holiday. So, we went to Nan Chu (that's right, two days in a row for me!). Of course, I found it delicious. Was nice hanging out with Henry and Bonnie again. I see Sam and Dak often but it was nice to see them too!

Thinking.

I do not feel all right.

usual ramblings

So, I know that Sam has been waiting for this post for a long time. I would like to take the time now to talk about cats (sorry, Meghan). What I said about cats was taken out of complex because Sam knows that there is no other way she could ever get me to say that I love cats. I said "I love cats with lasers" because as we all know, I love laser cats (my shirt is finally here =)). Now I know that Sam doesn't care about what context I said it in because she is a crazy cat lady but I wanted to tell the peoples that I specifically was talking about laser cats. Now that that is dealt with, I'm going to do my usual complaining thing now.

I woke up for school today after sleeping at 3a from doing close to nothing (eating McNuggets). I microwaved a croissant and filled up my water bottled. I can't really remember because I had only been awake for like ten minutes but here is what I think happened. I started to microwave my croissant, filled my water bottled, left the kitchen to pack my bag. Then I left the house with the croissant in the microwave and my filled up water bottle on the kitchen counter. This is no surprise to people who know me but I am hungry and thirsty =/ so I bought an ice cap. Then I get to school and read someones peer review of my proposal for communications on my phone in class. Turns out, I uploaded the wrong file, which means I also handed in the wrong file. I don't have any of my files one me and even though my class is over, I have to stay to work on a group project. SIGH, so I have to wait until I get home to sort all that shit out. I don't know where my head is ...

In addition to having no pc at home for quite some time now, our printer is broken and so is Jess' laptop. Time to drop some mad dollars at the Apple store. There is some type of rebate for buying a printer so that's exciting. Getting new things in general are exciting for me. My life needs to be spiced up. All though I experience buyers remorse all the time. Not so much about the products/services but for spending money. I went to the mall and downtown on Friday with Meghan then the next day I went back to the mall with Sam and Jamie. I some how spent $200 in those two days... *shame. Im proud of some of my purchaes though, I bought the Nick and Nora soundtrack for $5 at Urban Oufitters. I have yet to listen to it but am excited that it was so cheap.

Off to do some scholarly activities now, later days.

multimedia troubles

My dad has recently informed me that his iPod nano stopped working. Being my dad, he thinks that I manufactured the product and can fix it. I plugged his iPod into my laptop and it said that it was corrupt so I had to restore the factory settings. After I click 'restore', iTunes would stop responding. I tried this about three times. I'm not sure if my laptop is just slow so it's in progress or if my iTunes is now messed up too... sigh. So I guess I will try an other day.. I also need to do taxes. My STAT midterm is on Tues, so I should probably study for that as well. = / There needs to be more hours in a day. I've been sleeping before 1am these past few days (that's really early for me!). I'm supposed to brunch tomorrow with Phil but he is not answering my text message.. we will also see how that goes. I don't think I will wake up to study if we don't have brunch.

I went to see The Watchmen with Sam last night, she's full of free movie tickets (thanks HMV!). It was kind of hard to follow, I think I should have read the book first. The time line was hard to follow and the different generation of masked heroes... Plus, the guys next to me would not shut the hell up. The themes interested me though, so I think I will borrow the book from Sam in the near future. I also want to read about it on wikipedia but I'm scared my eyes will feel like falling out, like when I read up on ER characters. Holy crap, that show has been on forever. Movies that are coming out next week which I want to see are I Love You Man and Monsters vs. Aliens. Who's going to watch them with me? Eh? Eh? *nudge *nudge

It's been two weeks, I can't wait for my shirt! I assume most of you know that I love laser cats by now...

Hands down, I'm too proud for love. But with my eyes closed, it's you I'm thinking of.

I'm stubborn in so many ways. I get very angry when I have to admit that I'm wrong, I'd rather do things my way and look like a dumbass. Sometimes, I'd even rather tell a little white lie than admit that I screwed up, even when I know the other person won't care. I know it shouldn't matter because I'm not a robot (and it's not the distant future, the year 2000). I don't like to admit that I want something/someone for the same reason why i hate crying: it makes me feel weak. I want to know that I can be comfortable by myself and with everything that I already posses and nothing more. I'm not comfortable with asking for help or advice, I have it in my mind that I can figure everything out on my own and that I can handle it. Truth is, I can't. I've barely got anything figured out. Feelings just weird me out.. Remember kids, it's healthy to suppress your feelings!

I've taking the liberty to not pay attention in class so my note book is becoming filled with blog posts sporadically placed in between my school notes. Never sit behind a couple at school. There is no need to try and feel your girlfriend up during class, no friggen need at all. Stats is disturbing enough on its own, I don't need to have a wall of puke in front of me too. This case is a little funny though because she clearly is not into him as much as he is in to her. In the beginning of the semester, I couldn't tell if they were together. It just seemed like he was trying to hit on her and she wasn't digging it. It is now clear that they are together though. I wonder how old they are because it seems like I'm watching a scene from high school. They have matching phone charms, bunnies, and his is the pink one.. They have conversations where they write on a piece of paper and pass it back and forth. They are holding hands. WTF?!